Life. Period.

I am writing tonight out of complete frustration. I do realize that this is immature and probably not anything people want to read but it is something that I need to write. As a 20 year old college student a lot is going through your mind. What am I going to do with my life? Sure I enjoy some random day to day activities and thoughts that run through my mind but how does that translate into finding something I am passionate about, and that will also make me successful? Why when I know what I need to be doing am I not doing these things? I should be having lunch with CEO's of companies in greater Nashville trying to learn more about myself and what I want to pursue. What is stopping me? It's just a phone call. I should be in the best shape of my life and be getting stronger. I should be getting out and playing golf. I should be getting ahead on school work. I SHOULD, but I just don't. I get told almost daily, without fail, about how personable I am. I was told today about how I carry myself confidently and that I have wonderful presence in front of people. Why don't I get myself out there? The bottom line is, while I am still a kid, thinking about a girl more than I should, blowing off homework to be with friends, or spending my last dime to go on a road trip in order to starve myself for the remaining week, with the economy the way it is, success is already a worry of mine. So how am I going to position myself to be there? How can I begin to improve my status up against the genius from India who wants my job? So for these next three years, I can only pray my conscience will scream at me: "What the hell are you gonna do about it..."